party time

People are starting to arrive and we've finally got the music up and running. It's going to be a good night, but I'm really nervous about whether Lil's going to show up or not. I don't know what to say to her, even though I know I have to try and explain to her. But I did an unforgivable thing; I shouldn't have pounced on her the way I did. I used her so bad, I practically forced myself onto her and she was just not in the right frame of mind to stop me.

Okay I need to stop thinking about this tonight. I need to host this wonderful fucking party.

Let's get the beers out.