I'm still really pissed off with myself. I caused another argument between me and Lil last night at Josh's party by telling her to choose whether she still wants us to be friends or not. Josh came over and I left, and me and Lil haven't spoken since. I'm guessing she doesn't want us to be. I wouldn't if I was her anyway. I've been a complete fool.
She's my best friend and I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I can't lose her. I shouldn't have done what I did but I can't change that now. I need her to come up to ManchMet asap but I know she's too upset with me, and she's getting grief from her parents, Jamie and Summer about everything too so I bet she's really down. I know that Josh is trying to cheer her up by taking her out but I'm starting to feel a bit jealous about that too.
I can't live without her, but now there's no time to apologise. I should have done it when I had the chance, cos now I'm here in Manch on a busy timetable and she's in Hallam with the hectic lifestyle she leads.
I don't know what to do.
She's my best friend and I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I can't lose her. I shouldn't have done what I did but I can't change that now. I need her to come up to ManchMet asap but I know she's too upset with me, and she's getting grief from her parents, Jamie and Summer about everything too so I bet she's really down. I know that Josh is trying to cheer her up by taking her out but I'm starting to feel a bit jealous about that too.
I can't live without her, but now there's no time to apologise. I should have done it when I had the chance, cos now I'm here in Manch on a busy timetable and she's in Hallam with the hectic lifestyle she leads.
I don't know what to do.
