fool

Yesterday didn't go very well at the hospital. When I finally had the courage to go up there, Summer was already there. Not good. And then Lilly turned up, which just made me feel ten times more shit than I did already. With how much I wanted to talk to her, and knowing that was just not the time or place, it was bad. Summer kicked off and had a go at Lilly and basically we had to leave.

I was a bit gutted at being made to leave cos I know what Lil's like and I know what Josh's like, and they're probably laughing away having made up by now. And yeah I'm jealous but I just didn't want it to happen, not yet. I wanted the chance to speak to Lilly on her own, and speak to Josh on his own. Hopefully they'll still let me have that.

So anyway I found that I didn't have anywhere to go, and Summer offered for me to stay at her place. I was a bit reluctant at first - I fucking hate the bitch - but I didn't have anywhere else to stay. So I went round, and she got us drunk and tried it on with me. I told her to go fuck herself and ended up staying on the sofa.

So now it's gonna get around Hallam that I too have had it off with Summer, which is going to make things even more hell.

Bad times.