I tried to ring Lilly around 10pm last night but she didn't answer. So I tried again, and she didn't answer again. I rang Camps, and I rang the flat, and no answer. So I'm guessing she doesn't want to speak to me.
I'm gutted.
I'm gutted.
get-off-it @ 14:34|
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Monday, 29 September 2008
I'm still really pissed off with myself. I caused another argument between me and Lil last night at Josh's party by telling her to choose whether she still wants us to be friends or not. Josh came over and I left, and me and Lil haven't spoken since. I'm guessing she doesn't want us to be. I wouldn't if I was her anyway. I've been a complete fool.
She's my best friend and I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I can't lose her. I shouldn't have done what I did but I can't change that now. I need her to come up to ManchMet asap but I know she's too upset with me, and she's getting grief from her parents, Jamie and Summer about everything too so I bet she's really down. I know that Josh is trying to cheer her up by taking her out but I'm starting to feel a bit jealous about that too.
I can't live without her, but now there's no time to apologise. I should have done it when I had the chance, cos now I'm here in Manch on a busy timetable and she's in Hallam with the hectic lifestyle she leads.
I don't know what to do.
She's my best friend and I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I can't lose her. I shouldn't have done what I did but I can't change that now. I need her to come up to ManchMet asap but I know she's too upset with me, and she's getting grief from her parents, Jamie and Summer about everything too so I bet she's really down. I know that Josh is trying to cheer her up by taking her out but I'm starting to feel a bit jealous about that too.
I can't live without her, but now there's no time to apologise. I should have done it when I had the chance, cos now I'm here in Manch on a busy timetable and she's in Hallam with the hectic lifestyle she leads.
I don't know what to do.
get-off-it @ 19:40|
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Sunday, 28 September 2008
this is going to be fun.........................
get-off-it @ 17:00|
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Monday, 22 September 2008
I've been an absolute dickhead and I feel awful for it. I've really hurt Lil, something I never thought I'd do, and I feel like shit because of it. I did something really stupid and took advantage of her when she was really upset at Josh's party on Saturday night, and I've regretted it ever since. I treated her like a piece of meat, and I'm ashamed of myself. Now she's not talking to me, and I saw on her blog that she's weirded out by it all, and argh I don't know what to do to make it better. I don't think there is anything I can do.
She also really likes Josh, and he really likes her, which just makes me feel even more shit.
She also really likes Josh, and he really likes her, which just makes me feel even more shit.
get-off-it @ 10:51|
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Thursday, 18 September 2008
So Josh told me he fancies Lilly.
God I'm good.
God I'm good.
get-off-it @ 23:32|
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Tuesday, 16 September 2008
I'm seeing my mate Josh for a bit tonight, he's going to break up with his girlfriend or something. Which is great, cos I hate the stupid girl. She used to be best mates with Lil and Camps until she fucked them around, and she's kicked the dirt back up now that they're all going back to uni together. I can't be doing with it, i'm guessing Josh can't too that's why he's breaking up with her. I did warn him eight months ago what she was like but he insisted they were just casually dating. The problem is that no-one can casually date Summer Francis-Smith. She drags them in and stamps all over them and for some reason they're still willing to do everything she says.
It's weird the way everyone's breaking up before uni. Lil breaking up with Josh is not proving to be easy for her at all. It was supposed to be their anniversary today and what with everything she forgot all about it, so she's pretty upset. Her Dad's being really nice about it but he's mum's kicking up a big fuss about social circles etc etc. She's pretty fickle about stuff like that. I'm gonna head up there tomorrow morning anyway and move some stuff for her, I don't think she's gonna come with me.
I've always fancied Lil and Josh to get together to be honest. I love Lil to death, she's been my best mate for twelve years but that Jamie was never good for her. He's a sound enough lad, but he bums off his rich parents and doesn't really have an aim in life. Lil's got a steady head on her shoulders, she's clever and kind and completely gorgeous and I just reckon she needs to be with someone more on her wavelength, and someone who's gonna make her smile. Josh is gonna be a lawyer for christ's sake, and he's the soundest guy I've ever met. He'll no doubt make her smile too. But they've never met each other, I don't think one of them knows that I know the other, but with a bit of my magic something could come out of this! We'll see, I'm pretty sure Lil's not up to my matchmaking ways just yet.
I feel really bad for her, she seems really cut up and I'm guessing Summer's not making anything much easier for her. It's probably already going around like hotfire, and Summer's going to use it to her advantage. Okay so maybe Lil's stunning and popular and her parent's are rich, she's not actually that high maintenence, more effortlessly flawless. It's not her fault that so many people are jealous of her.
Look at me getting involved in all of this bitching. Such a girl.
It's weird the way everyone's breaking up before uni. Lil breaking up with Josh is not proving to be easy for her at all. It was supposed to be their anniversary today and what with everything she forgot all about it, so she's pretty upset. Her Dad's being really nice about it but he's mum's kicking up a big fuss about social circles etc etc. She's pretty fickle about stuff like that. I'm gonna head up there tomorrow morning anyway and move some stuff for her, I don't think she's gonna come with me.
I've always fancied Lil and Josh to get together to be honest. I love Lil to death, she's been my best mate for twelve years but that Jamie was never good for her. He's a sound enough lad, but he bums off his rich parents and doesn't really have an aim in life. Lil's got a steady head on her shoulders, she's clever and kind and completely gorgeous and I just reckon she needs to be with someone more on her wavelength, and someone who's gonna make her smile. Josh is gonna be a lawyer for christ's sake, and he's the soundest guy I've ever met. He'll no doubt make her smile too. But they've never met each other, I don't think one of them knows that I know the other, but with a bit of my magic something could come out of this! We'll see, I'm pretty sure Lil's not up to my matchmaking ways just yet.
I feel really bad for her, she seems really cut up and I'm guessing Summer's not making anything much easier for her. It's probably already going around like hotfire, and Summer's going to use it to her advantage. Okay so maybe Lil's stunning and popular and her parent's are rich, she's not actually that high maintenence, more effortlessly flawless. It's not her fault that so many people are jealous of her.
Look at me getting involved in all of this bitching. Such a girl.